stay

after hearing to what Ree is going through in her love life,

i immediately felt the need to confront the conflicts that are idling in ours.

first off all, i want to apologize from the bottom of my heart for hurting you.

i want to apologize for ever making you think that you are not good enough

or that i can easily move on with my life after you.

i know that sometimes i seem as if i dont care, but baby

thats just a facade, a mask to hinder you from knowing my true feelings.

i admit that i get jealous over every girls and as hard as i try,

i cannot help but think of negativity accomodating those women.

i know that i should trust you more but something inside me,

perhaps my lack of confidence and assurance let me do otherwise.

baby, all i really want to do is to love you unconditionally 

and i just hope that you will stay to witness it.

iM baCk :)

i never thought such a day would come but surely i was mistaken.

i thought that it was something different but i should have never assumed.

oh what treachery! what foul game!

it was a sick joke from the beginning.

the signs were all there, staring right back at me,

only i was a fool for missing them.

oh i beg thee - stop thy pretentious acts,

my heart has suffered enough!

so let me go...

go ahead and never look back,

after all it was you who said your'e ready to move on.

Winter Break...

Hello NEW YORK...

so its been awhile since I've last been in NYC...

its strange how nothing really changed yet everything feels different.

i've been going out since i got here and even the rain couldn't prevent me from enjoying my visit here

sad part of it though is that i'm almost bankrupt

hahaha..

anyways, Lance is a traitor for eating at subway...

boo you!

oh and i think i'm about to get sick...

its all good though

i just want to end and start the year with a BANG!

what am I?

i dont care who you are, wealth or popularity would not prevent me...

i dont care where you are, near or far, i will not miss you...

once im in, its hard to keep me out for i can be a part of you...

once im in, its hard to keep me out for i can be your very soul..

i will conquer your heart and destroy your mind...

i will not show pity for i have none...

so i suggest you get on with your life before i ruin it...

so i sugest you get on with your life before everyone starts missing you...

so far...

omg...

i took this trip to NYC hoping that i would have some relaxation...

but kill me now for i thought wrong!

it was a conspiracy against my coming to NYC...

it started when i was still in SA...

with me struggling to save my long lost luggage...

then my phone as if finally getting tired of me, stopped charging...

i should have never avoided the signs!!!

what's next?

nothing much..

just that my flight got delayed in Atlanta because of the horrible weather...

and right when i thought all will be well once i stepped inside JFK...

i found out that my luggage, among with my flight's passenger's luggages were all gone!!!

two and a half hours later, justice was still not in the air...

an old hag handled my situation and promised that i should be getting my luggage back the next day...

it was a lie...

a dirty trick that pretty much ruined my trip...

it wasn't until two days later did i finally get my luggage...

during this whole process though, i was one cranky person..

and trust me, you don't want to hang out with me when im cranky...

anyways i guess i should just enjoy the remainder of my stay here in NYC..